Hey Everyone!

Well for the longest time, well the summer time, I have had my hair blonde with multi-colours in it. I finally got out of it cause my hair was growing back. So I ended up going crazy and dying my hair Red-Black, but it came out REALLY red, I was pretty much a Redhead, yeah pretty weird I know. But it still looked good. . . Then I got bored of it, and didn’t like it anymore, so I did it again to a dark brown (people say it looks black) but thats fine, and I LOVE IT now!! It’s just like my natural colour just darker, and everyone else seems to think it looks good too…

Well yeah today, I got my hair cut. Since I needed one REALLY badly, it’s been about 2 months and a half that I haven’t cut it. So my hair dresser decided to go crazy and cut off 3 INCHES!! I was nearly in tears, if you haven’t noticed, I hate cutting my hair. lol… Yah so now it’s pretty short, but I like it.. I don’t have anymore dead ends and it’s wiicked :)…. Although… I CANT wait for my hair to grown LONG again !!

See yaa!

Well, on Sunday September 30th,
a close girl-friend of mine that I grew up with passed away along with her three brothers in an car accident. .
I’ve lost so many close friends/family this year, it’s unbelieveable..
My life is so stressful, no one will ever understand…
Everyones got their problems.. but mineI can almost bet no one has went through what I have …

Well, my week is just been terrible, cause of it…
I can’t believe she is gone… just like that..
We just hung out last weekend, and poof gone…
This is so depressing…

My ”Love” life is crappy too…
The guy I am head over heels for,
Is now in British Columbia . . things are so complicated with him and I, drives me crazy.. I am tired of all this.. and all this feeling of hurt and the feeling of being left behind sucks… it’s like dying and leaving everyone you love behind…

He bought me a ticket to move away with him, and the ticket is good for a year…and I got about six months to think things through..
It’s a very hard decision, and I know if I make the wrong choice, I’ll pretty much be screwed if I ever want to come back.. cause I know for one my parents will not want me back, well my Father wouldn’t. He already mentioned he’d disown me from his name, if I left and never came back home. . .
But come on now, I will soon be old enough to spread my wings and fly away to the land of Freedom… they just haven’t realized that yet..

Ahh…. what else is going to go wrong ??

Has it every crossed your mind,
That no matter what you do,
Someone out there still loves you,
That even if it is OVER,
They still think of you,
When you don’t want to see them,
You always end up seeing them,
Then,
When you FINALLY get over them,
They come back to haunt you,
And you’re back were you started..

I can’t stand keeping this away from him,
I want to let him know,
But for some reason the words just won’t come out,
Will it matter to him?
Or will he not care?
I really am interested,
But will he be afraid and just walk away?
How can I say it to him?
I can’t keep holding it in. .
He needs to know. .
It isn’t that bad. .
But I don’t know how he will react . . .

I remember the first day,
We laid eyes on eachother,
You made me feel so special,
Like I had an Angel holding me who wouldn’t let go,
Like my heart,
The one you had from the start,
Something you won’t take apart,
You like a spark,
You always seem to lighten up my days,
Everytime you smile,
I know happiness is coming my way,
I always wonder where you are,
But then I come to realize the only place is my heart,
Which will never part,
Since you’ve made your mark,
If I could I’d give you the world,
Cause the feelings for you are so true,
Caress my life with your heart, mind and soul,
Promise me you will never let go,
I;m just letting you know this now,
That no matter what I am yours forever,
Even when God tares us apart,
Its One love,
With One Life,
We’ve been waiting for this for so long,
Understand I wanna be with you baby,
Cause when I look at you,
You drive my mind crazy,
I want you to make me your beloved wife,
Your the sweetest man I can’t believe I got you,
Your strong and someone my kids will look up too,
We can take on the world with our love,
No matter what we can’t give up,
Cause I can say the word ‘Love’ ,
But it’s not enough,
U see,
You and Me can go over the land,
Cause I am the luckiest girl,
When I am holding your hand,
Again,
just letting you know I love you . .

Hello everyone

I haven’t been online in a long while.
Just been here and there.

I’ve been going to the states alot, and Wonderland. You know the usuall. I haven’t been drinking alot like I used too lol..
Well, last weekend, Me, Jorge & brandi drove up to the states, and spent the whole day & night there, shopping it was wiicked.
Then we bought two 60’s for 38bucks American, isn’t that INSANE?
Considering a 60 here in Canada costs about $50.00. It was a sweet deal.
Well when we arrived back to Jorges place, we sure got hammered. lol

Then this week sucked, the weather was either cold or raining. I hate when winter and fall comes… takes over everything … lol
This weekend was crazy. I can’t believe it’s Sunday night already, when I woke up this morning I thought it was Saturday lol.

Well yesturday we had my whole mom’s side of the family over my place, and it was packed. But my house is big so we all can fit here comfortablely
Everyone made it here except for my cousin Mike and his gf, other then that his daughter was here which made me happy, I love her!!..

My mother and I worked all day to make this day good, I spent 5 hours cleaning the house, changing bed sheets, setting tables, doing laundry, did the vacuum from top to bottom… fed Mindy, bathed Mindy. I was super women.
My feet were hurting by 5:30pm..
helped my mother with the food, and alll the desserts, then waited for the guests.
When they call came, I was starving !! lol

You know seeing all that food all day, makes me hungry… lol
Over all, it was a amazing night, I got completly hammered.
It was just shot after shot… lol.. yes I am a rock star!!
then drove down to Jorge and Brandi’s place and got REALLY PLASTERED!
&& the funny thing was we tried to play The Game Of Life, and we never finished, we NEVER do lol..

we were up till 4am. . .
&& when morning came, I had the biggest hang over ever… and usually I never feel like the way I did… I guess I just drank wayy to much.. oh well I had a blast neways :):)
meanwhile, Lindsey was RIGHT passed outt.. lol